Life Journey Reflections

Poems

Lost Love

Desolation

Desolation
The light has gone
How do I learn to live?

Heartbreak
The cold of night
How can I just forgive?

How do I
Live without you
When you're burning in my soul?

How do I
Face the endless years
Pretending that I'm whole?


Alone

I'm now alone
Yet folks are there
I'm standing here
But running scared

I've never known 
This feeling before
I've always felt loved
I've always been sure

I didn't even think
How to perform
I was just myself
It felt the norm

But now I stand
Confused and small
At the drop of a hat
I feel I could bawl

No longer strong self
And warm security
I'm out of whack
Where is my maturity?

Unquestioning, I did
The things I'd always do
Happily I'd let her do
The things she had to do

The world was there
But never a threat
Not even possession
Like the care of a pet

Then suddenly 
The trust was broken
Oh how hard it is to see
How all this fits in to my dimension
What is love now, just a token?

08/01/86

Angry

Angry? Hey, I didn't know
          Into marriage
          Full of dreams
          Days so full
          Smiles and beams

Angry? It didn't show
          Alone with kids
          Feeding, bathing
          Bed and prayers
          Dad on the phone

Angry? Yes
          Kids have grown
          Many moves
          Money, cows
          Jobs, it's crazy

Angry? No just dead
          Talk is cheap
          But doesn't come
          He's thick as a brick
          Days are all the same

Angry? I've grown accustomed
          I'll show him
          He'll care now
          What am I doing?
          I don't care

Angry? I think that's gone
          It's bliss
          No cares
          Who cares
          Hey, I'm me, free

Angry? Aren't I? Free?
          No I'm not
          Who is this girl?
          I don't know
          Will I let her go?

Angry? Not me

Graeme Dawson 19/07/86

Fear

Desolation, barrenness,
There's simply no way out.
Sliding deeper- no one sees me,
No one hears me shout.

Silence, loneliness,
My mind no longer whole,
Set a trap and finally caught
Myself- heart, mind and soul.

March 2000

My Husband

As I look back through the haze
Of mixed emotions through a glaze of tears,
This journey we have started on
Together, hand in hand
Has been a pathway strewn with many fears.

You know,

He's plucked them one by one,
Like petals taken from a thorny rose,
And through all our bewilderment
When justice seemed so far,
He kept each fallen petal- held them close.

He whispered softly,

Calling gently through the storm
"Hold on to what I've promised, cling to me."
And when the raging tempest eased
He left a tiny gift
Of fallen petals- 

Scented Potpourri.

18/05/02

Mirage

Have I a voice?
Is here a mind?
Or am I reflection
For your newest line

Of funnies,
Of clever
Of great repartee

To show you how good
You are looking to me?

Have I a spirit?
A soul or a heart?
Or am I a mirror
So you looking smart?

You show you
How witty,
How charming you be

You show me the door
And you smile as I leave.

12/02/04